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her own business up to the day she was
seized – and although after that she
was able to endorse some Rites of Ex :
she has not since done business –
I feel so very sorry now that I did not
accept her proffered generosity before
I went abroad that year. Had I done
so I could at least have paid some
=thing of that which has failed.
She knew my house was not let.
She told me not to have a thought
about Ch for she intended to send
him to the university – and she pressed
him to take £500 from her as a gift –
telling me it lay idle at H F & Co
& using long argument as my
godmother &c &c – but I am as you
know of an independant [independent] disposition
and I was reluctant to take it
& so she made me promise I wd
tell her & ask for it if I wanted it
When I came home & found that all her
allowances had stopped – I spoke